Two Lives in an Instant
He walks, arms folded across
bony chest cavity. Green neon
shirt hiding insults from long past.
Frail blue tie blowing in the wind.
Wearing light red pants, waist going
halfway to his chin. Chuck Taylor sneakers
that trip over themselves as he avoids the
tanned brunettes and bleached blond boys,
Those college fashion statements who rather
be seen and adored than focus on an education.
Standing isolated within budding cliques who
ridicule, tease and belittle the boy; he retreats
into a treasure of his own forlorn.
As I walk past him; and see the sadness he is
trying so hard to hide–He quickly stares back
at me, then looks down at the sidewalk for
some kind of moral support.
Two pony-tailed girls with white
halter-tops continue to giggle. One
cock-rock boy with a LeBron James
muscle shirt and knee-length checkered
shorts talks on his cell phone, ignoring
the kid with the strange clothes and
welling eyes.
I stop for a moment, then let him pass…he
is now two feet behind me and—oh god,
I should say something.
Even an acknowledgement of existence—a
hi or hello would be some source of inner light.
But I am a coward, wrapped up in my own playground
creation of torrid tears.
I say nothing to him-and he walks away…
His story still his own.
Me, less pure and more tainted.
Because some tales must remain hidden.
For all never to see.
Ever.
But once in a while, life’s sacred secrets are unfortunately witnessed…
and felt by many.
Even if you do not want them to be…
____________
Not Drinking?
Ironically, flexing
my muscles in the
AA group…
While an ex-bohemian moderator
presents the god-damn 9th step
during winter’s twilight.
Ransom chip to some
cabbage like skank who
has six months sobriety…
I walk home
alone—
Berlin Pub in my
sights—
Hear some country singer
croon about his
cows running away…
Juke box failure…
World frustrater…
Yea, I wish for the bottle now.
It’s bullshit sickening.
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